Today has not been a good day (so far).
I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. Firstly, I managed to move my bad hip in a way that made me feel every type and level of pain I can imagine, in that one joint. It did not settle for the rest of the night and has been very tender all day, so I will be trying not to do that again in a hurry! Secondly, I have developed a lot of pain in my neck/shoulder/collarbone area, I think from bearing weight through my spindly arms. This kept me awake for most of the night and by the end of it I couldn’t even shift the duvet myself.
Everything was a struggle and I started to wonder if I’d be better off in a rehabilition centre after all; I really felt that I wouldn’t be able to manage the day ahead. Getting down the stairs on crutches was nearly impossible with the pain and, once down, my whole body was shaky, my legs all wobbly like Bambi. I needed to get to the doctors for my GP appointment at 9.30am, so had no time to pace myself as much as I needed, but I did have help and a lift there at least. It was a case of grinning and bearing it somehow.
My GP is currently off for halfterm so I saw a locum doctor. She was actually very good and represcribed me all of my medication and organised a referral for Home Physio and Occuptional Therapy Care Package, although she could not tell me how long this would take to put into place. Again, the politics of where I live (now locally, as well as county-wise) seem to be creating a problem and all I can do is sit and wait for a telephone call. I really hope it doesn’t take too long, especially after the morning I had.
Back at home it took over six hours and numerous doses of Oramorph on top of the Zomorph to get my pain to a bearable-ish level and since then I’ve been able to relax and get about a bit easier. The whole time though, I’ve been trying to stretch my muscles gently and keep moving; but, as many of you will understand, it is quite the vicious circle when movement causes pain and no movement causes a different type of pain. Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing more harm than good, but I’ve erred on the side of caution in the past and I’m not sure it got me anywhere.
It’s now early evening and I’m a lot more comfortable; in fact, I’m looking forward to a Valentine’s meal of Steak and Wedges, cooked my lovely boyfriend. Not bad after receiving a big bunch of red roses last night too 🙂
So hopefully, after feeling quite low this morning, things are about to take a turn for the better.